I’ve gotten to the point where I’m so lonely I can feel it in my bones. For as long as I can remember I’ve had this idea of this dream guy who will just magically appear in my life and sweep me right off my feet and we’ll live happily ever after. It’s nights like these where I tend to lose all hope and try to accept the fact I’m on my own and that isn’t going to change anytime soon.
Tonight I realized I’m in need of new friends. I’m not sure how much of this boring, routine, materialistic, lifestyle of yours I can take, if at all anymore.
I’m in need of adventure.
I feel like I’m getting my hopes up again for no reason. My mind keeps making up scenarios where you start talking to me again. Why can’t I just move on? Why aren’t I able to let go? It’s not like we had a serious thing going. This sucks.
Today I am haunted by regret. I thought that it would of helped with getting over you, but as a matter of fact it made it worse, it made me miss you more. I feel so dumb, I wish I could go back and change things. I just want to forget.
I don’t know why but I could not stop thinking about you today, I just don’t know what it is. I just want to forget, but it’s like the more I try to forget, the more time I spend over analyzing every memory. I want you out of my head.